Letting it go would be nice

[dragonyphoenix]

I had been super frustrated right up until last Tuesday. The kind of frustrated where I knew I was being unreasonable over things that shouldn’t have been bothering me at all but where I could not stop being upset. And then on Tuesday there were blue skies and sun, and I drove around for about an hour, running errands, and suddenly found myself thinking, “I feel great!” So apparently it was mostly SAD.

It does interest me that I could see I was being unreasonable - getting horrifically upset over situations that shouldn’t have even been an issue - but I couldn’t stop myself from feeling that anger. That’s an improvement, I’m thinking, from feeling justified when angry. Hopefully I can move to seeing that I’m upset over something stupid and then being able to let go of that anger. That would be nice.

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[maramcreates]

I'm sorry to hear that you've been having a tough time. I'm glad you got a break with some of that sun last Tuesday. Today was wonderful, and I hope you get to be out in the nice weather.
If you're interested in the sunlamp/lightbox thing we mentioned the other night, we got ours from Sunbox (they're in Gaithersburg btw, and are locally owned, etc.). Because it was prescribed, it counted as a medical expense for us (and depending on your insurance, how you do your taxes, and/or whether or not you've got a sheltered medical spending account you'll likely be able to get one for less). I don't see the one we have listed on their site anymore (SunBox DL), but they've produced some solid lamps over the years.