I'm not in a near to cutting myself place at the moment. Even when it was worse than it is now, I was more headed in that direction rather than actually doing it. And it might not have been cutting but it wouldn't have been pretty. I might have had a heart attack first or a nervous breakdown. Stuff like that. I'm less stressed at the moment and at least my therapist didn't try to hide under a rock when I told her. Her voice became very sympathetic and she said something like I must have been hurting dreadfully to consider that.

Yeah, I'd never known that about Susan before. I really appreciated her speaking up about it.

I'm pretty sure the name "nuclear family" didn't originate as a toxic family kind of idea, although it does work well that way. *laughs*