But I want you to know there is nothing to be ashamed of. I've had at one time or another all of those symptoms. Oh, and thanks for that. It's still wigging me, making me feel like I'm a real freak or something. You're the first one I've given the symptoms to, even beating out Kat. She had to tell me something very drastic, that a friend of ours did during a breakdown, before I admitted visualizing my arms slashed.