I think psychology is fascinating, especially in relation to what's going on in my life. So. yeah, I can do this all day!

It's okay to feel "better". Thank you for this paragraph. I'm the perfectionist child who thinks "If I'm not being completely saintly, if I have even one mean thought in my head, I must be failing!" *shakes head*

I'm big with the avoidance. That's another family pattern. My aunt and I unfriended each other after I reacted to the Facebook rant against me. Something about me just bugs her. Also, when she's upset about anything or anyone, I'm the person she uses as a scapegoat. I sort of feel like I'm falling into another family pattern (avoidance) with this but we've never been close and I don't need the verbal abuse bombs appearing out of nowhere.