I'm Eeyore

[dragonyphoenix]

I have been getting more and more depressed. At first it was only workdays, but then it started extending into the weekends. Today I burst into tears. It was just for a few minutes but it was over pretty much nothing. I'd been feeling like crying all morning and it finally burst out of me.

My friend Anne agreed with me that it might be hormonal (perimenopause), but also said this: "You are depressed a lot, so I wonder if you've ever talked to someone about chronic clinical depression? I have friends and family members who have been greatly helped by very mild and temporary medication--sometimes your brain chemistry just needs to be kicked back in the right direction."

I don't know. I don't want to take something with a bunch of side effects, but I am getting more and more miserable over time. ;-(

Comments

[forsaken2003.livejournal.com]

I think you do hun. But I want you to know there is nothing to be ashamed of. I've had at one time or another all of those symptoms. But you should really try to get a hold of your doctor tomorrow if you can *hugs*

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Working on finding a therapist. I have a friend who is a social worker, and she gave me criteria for selecting one. Plus I need to talk to work about whom they'll cover me to visit.

[forsaken2003.livejournal.com]

Thats great hun! Let me know how everything goes. Hopefully work will cover it or atleast help pay for part of it.

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

There is a number through the employee assistance program that I have to call first. Apparently I talk to them five times and they can give me a referral, which means my health insurance might cover it. I didn't want to call from work and am at the library now so I'll check it out in more deatail after dinner.

[forsaken2003.livejournal.com]

If you go your doctor they might be able to get you a referal. At least thats how I did it. Not sure if it works that way everywhere

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

But I want you to know there is nothing to be ashamed of. I've had at one time or another all of those symptoms. Oh, and thanks for that. It's still wigging me, making me feel like I'm a real freak or something. You're the first one I've given the symptoms to, even beating out Kat. She had to tell me something very drastic, that a friend of ours did during a breakdown, before I admitted visualizing my arms slashed.

[forsaken2003.livejournal.com]

It can be very scary but you are in no way a freak. Or if you are the two of us can start a club! =)

Sometimes its easier to hear that someone else has a problem before you can admit your own. Does that make sense?

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

That makes total sense.