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dragonyphoenix ([personal profile] dragonyphoenix) wrote2011-10-09 08:06 pm
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I'm Eeyore

I have been getting more and more depressed. At first it was only workdays, but then it started extending into the weekends. Today I burst into tears. It was just for a few minutes but it was over pretty much nothing. I'd been feeling like crying all morning and it finally burst out of me.

My friend Anne agreed with me that it might be hormonal (perimenopause), but also said this: "You are depressed a lot, so I wonder if you've ever talked to someone about chronic clinical depression? I have friends and family members who have been greatly helped by very mild and temporary medication--sometimes your brain chemistry just needs to be kicked back in the right direction."

I don't know. I don't want to take something with a bunch of side effects, but I am getting more and more miserable over time. ;-(

[identity profile] dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com 2011-10-11 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
But I want you to know there is nothing to be ashamed of. I've had at one time or another all of those symptoms. Oh, and thanks for that. It's still wigging me, making me feel like I'm a real freak or something. You're the first one I've given the symptoms to, even beating out Kat. She had to tell me something very drastic, that a friend of ours did during a breakdown, before I admitted visualizing my arms slashed.

[identity profile] forsaken2003.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 07:11 pm (UTC)(link)
It can be very scary but you are in no way a freak. Or if you are the two of us can start a club! =)

Sometimes its easier to hear that someone else has a problem before you can admit your own. Does that make sense?

[identity profile] dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
That makes total sense.