I'm Eeyore

[dragonyphoenix]

I have been getting more and more depressed. At first it was only workdays, but then it started extending into the weekends. Today I burst into tears. It was just for a few minutes but it was over pretty much nothing. I'd been feeling like crying all morning and it finally burst out of me.

My friend Anne agreed with me that it might be hormonal (perimenopause), but also said this: "You are depressed a lot, so I wonder if you've ever talked to someone about chronic clinical depression? I have friends and family members who have been greatly helped by very mild and temporary medication--sometimes your brain chemistry just needs to be kicked back in the right direction."

I don't know. I don't want to take something with a bunch of side effects, but I am getting more and more miserable over time. ;-(

Comments

[silk-labyrinth.livejournal.com]

I'll cross my fingers for the sabbatical possibility. I was happy to read that you're considering something like that! Best of luck.
ETA: Just saw that you're considering therapy. Thumbs up for that -- it's been a big help to me.

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Sadly I don't think I'll get a chance with the sabbatical, much as I'd love to. I have the savings for it but being unable to find a new job afterwards would make me lose the house and kill my credit. And, more importantly, the mortgage company could take from me the difference between what was owed on the house and what it sold for. *grrrrr*

Definitely going forward with the therapy though. Have to post a follow up so all the really nice people who've been commenting and being so supportive know what's going on.