It really works

[dragonyphoenix]

I was depressed last week. Actually I've been depressed for a long time, but last week was the first time I stopped writing. As of Monday, I came home from work and zoned out before the tv. On Wednesday, I was reading where I was asked to set goals: from immediate goals, through short-term and mid-range goals, to long-range visions. For my immediate goal I wrote that I'd write, work on my story, an hour each day from Thursday through Saturday.

Instead I wrote an hour each day from Wednesday through Saturday. Every evening I'd be sitting before the tv, feeling depressed, but the thought that I'd written down the goal was enough to get me, usually around eleven at night, to go write for an hour. Amazing.

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[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

I'm better on and off. It's been trying to find a therapist. The few that returned my calls did so while I was at work, which wasn't helpful. I've spoken with one, and actually rather like her, but I'm going to do a bunch of calls tonight, saying what time I'll get home Thursday and Friday and that I'll be home on Monday (since I decided to take Halloween off).

Hope you're doing better!

*hugs*

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

I hope you feel better soon!

Is it inappropriate to interview therapists? The ones that have gotten back to me seem to be pissed about that. One went from returning my call for the interview, to suggesting another therapist, to telling me she couldn't fit me into her schedcule. Made me feel like I was too crazy for her. Which totally means she's not a good match for me, although she was the frontrunner up until that, and I'm glad I know that, but it's not doing much for my self-esteme.

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I hadn't thought about switching therapists if one doesn't work out. I'm hoping some will call on Monday, when I've told them I'll be home all day. Otherwise I'll pick one based on Internet presense.