Took long enough

[dragonyphoenix]

Had my first chat with my therapist today.  I felt much better afterwards although that didn't last.  She did confirm I'm depressed by giving me this twenty-question thingamabob to fill out.  My score was 69, which is the high-end of moderately depressed; apparently 70 is the low-end of whatever the next worst level of depression is called.

My assignments till next week are to think of three things a day that I'm grateful for and to work on stopping my negative thoughts.  Apparently telling the cat "I'm off to hell" each morning as I head out to work is a self-fufilling prophecy.  I'm thinking the best I'll be able to do tomorrow is "work might not totally suck today".  *sigh*

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[diebirchen.livejournal.com]

There's a lot to be said for escape, but the fact is that the world doesn't want you to be miserable at all, let alone forever. The world doesn't give a flying flip one way or the other. That's why we all have to take control of our lives and work for happiness with help from our friends and lots of determination.

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Which would be easier if my determination hadn't sunk into the black hole of depression.