getting better all the time

[dragonyphoenix]

This is actually from a few weeks back:

Taking notes on Warm Bodies at the end of June, I wrote this:

“One mistake, one brief lapse of my newfound judgment—that's all it took to unravel everything” (189). This is exactly how I feel. Giving in, making one bad decision, that will leave me trapped in crappy job-land. Forever. Buried under the dirt, maybe with concrete poured over, so I can never get out again. Never do what I want. Never have a life I love. Never be happy.

Yesterday, seeing my therapist after a two-week hiatus, she commented on how more optimistic I am now. That the last time she'd seen me, I'd felt trapped. And it's true, I do feel hope now that I didn't feel then. I feel as if I can experiment with my career, try different things and see what works, that I can create a life I love. Unexpected how quickly that can change.

Comments

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

I am so glad you're doing better!


Gabrielle

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it is very awesome. Plus I bunch of my anger just up and vanished last week. ;-)

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It's making me very happy! ;-)