On Lies

[dragonyphoenix]

The Taming prompt was money lies so I was looking for quotes about money and lies when I came across these.

Comments

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

That's powerful and true.


Gabrielle

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

[red-satin-doll.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetheart.....*sigh*

How are YOU doing, btw?

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

*sigh* I'd thought once pickamix left I'd have a chance to put this behind me but then the very next day she sent an e-mail to the elite few she'd decided to keep in touch with and now she's posting again although it looks like one of her preprogrammed posts. I did suggest that this whole only my secret cabal is worthy enough to hear from me thing was weird and that she should just get back on LJ if she was going to keep in touch so I shouldn't knock her being back on LJ but it's just like a punch to the gut, or maybe the heart, whenever I see something from her.

[rahirah]

Is it worth the drama to defriend her? Because it really sounds like there's more pain than gain at the moment. :(

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

I've been considering it, seriously enough that my thoughts are more along the lines of why haven't I done this yet than should I.

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

If there's anything I can do, please let me know, okay? I hate that you're hurting.


Gabrielle

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I think the only thing I can do is minimize the number of reminders. Maybe meditate, which I'm doing anyway, but that's more of a long-term way of controlling my emotions.

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

*so many hugs* Do what you have to do.


Gabrielle

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I've e-mailed her and asked her to take me off her special friends mailing list and I've unfriended her. *sigh* I don't want to cause her more pain but every time I see a message from her it's like tearing the scab off a wound. ;-(

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

I think you've done the right thing. You matter, and taking care of yourself matters. *more and more hugs*


Gabrielle

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I can certainly use hugs today.

I remember my aunt saying you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of someone else. She never mentioned how hard that is.

*hugs*

[red-satin-doll.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetheart, I'm SO sorry you've had to endure this.

Folks have been worried about me, but to be honest? It hurts not hearing from her, it hurts having her mention me ambiguously in a post and not hear from her directly.

But is it killing me? I'll survive. I knew the worst of her (I thought) long before I knew the best of her, and I'll deal.

You've done everything you can to honor her "legacy" and be a good friend; you have every right to do whatever you need to do to protect and take care of yourself.

I don't know if you want to continue as an admin at ficamix, if you don't, please feel free to modify your status there as well. I get notification in my inbox whenever someone posts to the site so I'm keeping an eye on it.

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

I think I'd have been okay if she'd gone away, like she'd said she was, and eventually came back. That would have given me time to deal with this and to get over it. I had that whole relief of having the distance to deal with it for less than a day and then, boom, she was back.

it hurts having her mention me ambiguously in a post and not hear from her directly. Yeah, that was not well done.

I am going to try continuing with Shanshu, which is being posted to ficamix. Also I've been the only one to create a post at ficamix since Megan announced she wasn't dead. I don't believe there will be much traffic there. But thanks. I'll keep it in mind.

[rahirah]

Apt, sadly. :/

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Quite apt. ;-(

[snogged.livejournal.com]

That is so true.
*hugs*

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[gillo]

I wish I didn't understand what this refers to.

Stay strong, pet. {{hugs}}

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Thanks.