Oh sweetheart, I'm SO sorry you've had to endure this.
Folks have been worried about me, but to be honest? It hurts not hearing from her, it hurts having her mention me ambiguously in a post and not hear from her directly.
But is it killing me? I'll survive. I knew the worst of her (I thought) long before I knew the best of her, and I'll deal.
You've done everything you can to honor her "legacy" and be a good friend; you have every right to do whatever you need to do to protect and take care of yourself.
I don't know if you want to continue as an admin at ficamix, if you don't, please feel free to modify your status there as well. I get notification in my inbox whenever someone posts to the site so I'm keeping an eye on it.
I think I'd have been okay if she'd gone away, like she'd said she was, and eventually came back. That would have given me time to deal with this and to get over it. I had that whole relief of having the distance to deal with it for less than a day and then, boom, she was back.
it hurts having her mention me ambiguously in a post and not hear from her directly. Yeah, that was not well done.
I am going to try continuing with Shanshu, which is being posted to ficamix. Also I've been the only one to create a post at ficamix since Megan announced she wasn't dead. I don't believe there will be much traffic there. But thanks. I'll keep it in mind.
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Folks have been worried about me, but to be honest? It hurts not hearing from her, it hurts having her mention me ambiguously in a post and not hear from her directly.
But is it killing me? I'll survive. I knew the worst of her (I thought) long before I knew the best of her, and I'll deal.
You've done everything you can to honor her "legacy" and be a good friend; you have every right to do whatever you need to do to protect and take care of yourself.
I don't know if you want to continue as an admin at ficamix, if you don't, please feel free to modify your status there as well. I get notification in my inbox whenever someone posts to the site so I'm keeping an eye on it.
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it hurts having her mention me ambiguously in a post and not hear from her directly. Yeah, that was not well done.
I am going to try continuing with Shanshu, which is being posted to ficamix. Also I've been the only one to create a post at ficamix since Megan announced she wasn't dead. I don't believe there will be much traffic there. But thanks. I'll keep it in mind.