don't let the door hit you on the way out

[dragonyphoenix]

I'm watching the final episodes of Babylon 5 in which most of the characters are moving on, leaving the station for new positions. For nineteen years, I've considered myself a part of Four Quarters Farm. I had friends who'd introduced a group of us to the land in the beginning and for years a number of us would go up for festivals. Over the years, the others dropped off but I continued to go. I had one friend, Heather, I hung with there and others I recognized. As I dropped all festivals other than Fire's Rising, I stopped seeing Heather because she doesn't attend that one. This year's was the first Fire's Rising I'd been to in a while. I thought I'd been there the year before last but comments suggest it has been more years than that. Anyway I've been going less and less but I still felt a connection to the land.

This last visit I wandered around to my favorite spots and didn't feel that old connection. I don't feel that this is my place anymore. Leaving I felt like Lyta Alexander as she left B5. No fanfare. Nobody there to see her off. She just left. I saw a guy I knew enough to speak to and I waved, but he didn't wave back. No fanfare. I left.

I feel a little sad but I think all I'm doing is acknowledging a transition that's been happening for a while.

Comments

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

*hugs*


Gabrielle

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm definitely appreciating the hugs.

[feliciacraft.livejournal.com]

Transitions are hard. You have a keen awareness to recognize it. * Hugs*

P.S. What is Fire's Rising?

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

I was at the third night of Fire's Rising and wasn't connecting to the fire circle so I was off in my tent by myself. That's when I figured out I was transitioning out of this place.

The wonderful folks over at

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I was at the third night of Fire's Rising and wasn't connecting to the fire circle so I was off in my tent by myself. That's when I figured out I was transitioning out of this place.

The wonderful folks over at <a href="http://vegasvortex.com/pages/firecirclehome"Vegas Vortex</a> created an alchemical fire circle ritual. Three nights. Up all night dancing around the fire circle. It is an intense ritual. The idea is one of transformation, turning your lead (issues) into gold. Fire's Rising is a ritual in that tradition which is held on this coast.

[snogged.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm hugely appreciating the hugs today.

[the-emu.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah. I don't know B5, but I know that feeling.

It's not quite that you want to go back; it's really that you feel like the exit deserves some ceremony - or at least someone to get misty-eyed, with.

I don't know the festival, but I'm raising a glass to toast your years there.

8^-

[dragonyphoenix.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you. Clinks my cup to yours.