well, that's odd

My ex-roommate, Kat, and I have been disputing the final bills in our old place and raising old issues. I'd been planning to reply to her last e-mail and to post our views on the finances to Facebook. Basically to show what a horrible person she is.

I suddenly don't care. Neither one of us is going to budge on the finances so that's going to stay where it is. There's no point in discussing it further. I feel like just walking away.

I think this is the first time I've ever felt this way and I'm not sure if this feeling will last, but I do think it's really healthy.

Edit 6/16:
Well, today I'm not sure if this is healthy of my usual avoidance of conflict pattern.

Also, there are things in her last e-mail I totally want to respond to because she's just that wrong about my motivations, but at the same time I don't think it'll change her opinion so why bother. *sigh* 

Edit 6/16: 
I just looked at her last letter. Ugh! No wonder I don't want to reply. Just looking at it stresses me out, and if I reply I'll have to read another one.

On the downside, I'm having no trouble posting passive-aggressive messages to her such as: Chatting with my roommate this morning, enjoying the flow of anecdotes, I remembered how lovely it is to be listened to and heard.

Edit 6/16: 

A tarot reading suggests I am on the right path and not slipping back into old patterns. The reading speaks of discarding old patterns, of shaking lose rules that don't work for me, and of liberating myself from aggression to embrace inspiration. In the past I've paid too much attention to the needs of others and lost myself. After this great struggle, it's a relief to withdraw from the world, to take the time to get back to myself.

Rumi quote

“Let the beauty you life, be what you do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.” - Rumi