rant, ignore if you want

[dragonyphoenix]

Oh my Goddess! My roommate is driving me nuts!

The dryer broke and I tried looking at it myself but had trouble getting it open. So I said I'd as Dad to look at it while he's here (Thanksgiving) because he used to own two laundromats and fixed his own machines. It wasn't the belt which meant it wasn't going to be an easy fix so I ordered a new machine. It came in on Friday BUT the specs for dryer outlets have changed. The plug on the new dryer doesn't fit into the old outlet. So still no dryer.

Like Isabella in Northanger Abbey, Leslie, if she's upset about something, will say it's fine but make a bunch of comments on the topic. So, she told me she was okay drying her clothes at the local laundromat. But, the weekend before Dad visited, after I'd told her we were going to look at it while he was here, she talked about having to take her laundry out FIVE times over the course of one evening and the next morning. Nothing blatantly accusatory, more like “I've got to find my card for the laundromat.”

So last night she commented that she'd have to take the laundry out. I spent the day running errands. I really did have that much to do but I was also glad to be out of the house until dark because I wouldn't be here when she made a big deal about carting the laundry in or out. So, I'm sitting and taking my shoes off when she comments that she'd been lazy today, hadn't done anything, “oh, no, that's not true, I did my laundry.” Aaaagh!

Even if I had thought through all the things that might go wrong with the delivery, that the plug wouldn't have fit the outlet would never had been on my list. Why can't she just give me some fucking time to deal with this? I've already found out that while it's possible to use an older plug, it'd be a better idea to update the outlet. And I've started searching for the name of the electrician I like. I just haven't found it yet. And if I don't find it I'll ask neighbors for references and look at the BBB. It feels like she expects me to wave a goddamned magic wand and fix it right now. Aaargh!

And I get that part of the reason I'm so edgy about this is that I feel I should have been perfect and that I should have anticipated and had a fix ready for the problem. And I get the holidays are frustrating for me and making me grumpier than usual. And I get I'm projecting my anger that Megan is dead. And I get that I could (should?) just explain to her how I hear what she's saying.

I want to add “but still! Aaaargh!” but I feel dumb saying that after the whole having other reasons to be angry and haven't asked her not to explanation.

*sigh*