Photo of Mom and a jackass
Oct. 12th, 2016 11:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dragonyphoenixI've been sorting through old family photos - some of which I took from Mom’s house after she passed - and came across a picture of her and an old boyfriend. Tony had thought Mom came from money because she spoke of a family farmhouse. After he met the family, he dumped her. Tony had been fucking other women while dating Mom. Tony got married on Mom’s birthday which, in the middle of January, just isn’t a big wedding month.
Damn but I was upset to see this photo. I knew she’d still had feelings for him even years later. I’d once noticed a picture of him on her fridge and when I commented on it she said in one of those artificially chipper tone of voices, “Is there really?”
The photo had been tucked away with some studio shots she’d had done in the ‘80s so I can let myself imagine she had eventually forgotten it was there. I put it away and found it again yesterday.
I decided to burn the photo but cut them apart first. Once I looked at Mom alone, I saw how happy she’d been. I’d planned to burn the two pieces separately and put the ashes from his side into salt to break any bond, but after I’d seen her alone I felt I couldn’t deny her that happiness. Yeah, he’d been an ass, but before that she’d been happy. So I just burned the two pieces together.
Damn but I was upset to see this photo. I knew she’d still had feelings for him even years later. I’d once noticed a picture of him on her fridge and when I commented on it she said in one of those artificially chipper tone of voices, “Is there really?”
The photo had been tucked away with some studio shots she’d had done in the ‘80s so I can let myself imagine she had eventually forgotten it was there. I put it away and found it again yesterday.
I decided to burn the photo but cut them apart first. Once I looked at Mom alone, I saw how happy she’d been. I’d planned to burn the two pieces separately and put the ashes from his side into salt to break any bond, but after I’d seen her alone I felt I couldn’t deny her that happiness. Yeah, he’d been an ass, but before that she’d been happy. So I just burned the two pieces together.
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Date: 2016-10-13 02:16 am (UTC)Tony sounds like a super jackass.
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Date: 2016-10-13 04:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-10-14 11:50 pm (UTC)I bet burning that photo felt wonderfully cathartic, though.
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Date: 2016-10-16 05:02 am (UTC)